I enjoy watching other people. I’m fascinated by how they move and interact with one another.
Maybe that’s one reason why I enjoy reading and watching biographies. The statement “Every life has a story” is one of my favorite sayings. My social media page includes this statement, but it ends with “I’m living mine.”
I guess that is the question “Am I living mine?”
When I look at my life today, like many others, it’s nothing like I expected it to be. I think about this revelation from time and time. But it’s only until recently that I’ve come to a deeper revelation. The reason why I’m not where I thought I would be is because when I get real honest with myself, I would have to answer one of three questions:
Do I want to be there because that’s where society expects me to be?
You know there where society puts a timeline on your life. When you should get married, have kids and a career; the list goes on.
Is the reason I’m not there because of fear?
There have been a number of things I wanted to do but always found a way to talk myself out of it. As if I’m not worthy of what it is that I desire.
Am I not there because subconsciously I chose not to be there?
Always one to follow my own mind, I still wanted to be “normal” and “fit in” with everyone else. But when it came down to it, I always did what was right for me.
We have a habit of beating ourselves up when we feel society’s pressures. But maybe on some level, the reason we haven’t is because we really didn’t want to, didn’t feel comfortable or the time simply wasn’t right.
At this point in my life, I can’t undo what was/wasn’t done. The best I can do is take all that has happened, accept it and move towards the best that God has planned for me. Because unlike myself, He has the A, B, C or D plan of getting me where I need to be.
So am I living mine?
I’m living it just the way I need to live it. I wasn’t meant to live it like everyone else. As the Bible says I’m in this world, but I’m not of it. - S. Hood