Hello, my name is Kimberleigh Beard. I am 18 years old and am currently 4 months into my transition to natural hair. I write poetry and have been writing poems about my hair lately and would like to share them with the CurlyNikki community. I was born with cerebral palsy which resulted in a limp, low physical capability and a bad stutter. Growing up, I have always battled with low self-esteem and confidence issues. I can not tell you how much my low self esteem has hindered my life farther than my physical disability ever could.
I decided to transition to natural hair after seeing countless people doing it and falling in love with its beauty. My family has not been supportive at all. I recently had to get my hair cut really short because it was damaged from bad braids (knotted up, took out my hair). It seems to me that now that my hair is short, they no longer feel that I am beautiful. My mother told me that by giving up my long hair I am losing my natural beauty.(translation—you look ugly with short hair) –This statement is what made me write this poem.
I really want to go natural. I know that it will be worth it in the end. But, it is so hard without support especially when I don’t have the money or transportation to do it alone. Either way, I am going to continue on this journey… for me!
All my life (spoken word)
All my life
I’ve been what other people thought of me
Never been free
Born in chains
And then I got a whole history behind me
Never been free
Always the ugly one–
The no fun–
The why can’t you be bright like the sun
Cuz out the womb
These20legs didn’t run—
And this voice
Was a jammed trigger–
On a gun
Cuz out of the womb these legs didn’t run—
Grew up surrounded by negativity
Nobody wanted me
Nobody could see what the quiet girl in the corner