by Kim Jackson of Peace, Love and Pretty Things
“I will stop judging myself to be not enough.”
There was a time, not very long ago, where I found myself trapped in a constant state of “not
enough”. I felt like “less than”. I compared myself to others way too often. “I’m not as fabulous
as she is. I wish my relationship was like theirs. I wish I had as much money as she does. She’s
prettier than me. Her hair is so much longer than mine.….” It was never ending.
What I have discovered in the past couple of years—through continuous prayer, meditation,
yoga, reading, exercising and writing—is that I am enough. I had to be broken down and
stripped of everything I thought was important in order to figure this out. I had to lose and lose
and lose in order to make a decision that I didn’t intend to live life as a loser. It was time to
figure out who I was, what I wanted, and how I was going to get it. The days of comparing me
to others were over because I suddenly realized they weren’t going through my struggle and I
hadn’t gone through theirs. I began to intuitively understand that I am completely unique. My
thoughts/words/talents/hair/legs/arms/life lessons are all uniquely mine. No one can have
more of them or be better at them than me–just as I can’t be successful at trying to be like
anyone else. I know now beyond a shadow of a doubt that I am enough! I am pretty/intelligent/
talented/financially secure/funny/fabulous enough! Just enough. I am the perfect me and that
IS enough. It’s enough for me and enough for anybody who dares to love me.
My life and my journey are not about what anybody else says/thinks/feels about me. I get to
choose: how hard I work, how far I stretch, how often I push; I get to choose success over fear
of inadequacy. I get to choose peace in my heart over judgment of my situation. I get to be true
to myself every day all day, and to act on what I believe to be true about myself. Nobody else’s
opinion really matters. All that exists is what I see in me.