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Ever since my mother was diagnosed with schizophrenia, I’ve been worried that I would eventually face the same fate.

When you have a family history of mental illness, or any health
issue/disease for that matter, you can easily become engrossed with the
idea that you are going to get sick, too. You might mistake normal
bodily changes and occurences as more serious symptoms because you’re
subconsciously waiting for this self-fulfilling prophecy to come to
pass.

Even before she was diagnosed, there were obvious peculiarities to her
behavior that I also recognized in my maternal grandmother. So, I didn’t
need the diagnosis to know that there was something going on with them
that seemed to have been passed down from mother to daughter. With this
awareness, I would look at myself in the mirror and feel so hopeless.
Entering adulthood, I harbored thoughts of being damaged and broken. I
didn’t think I had a chance.

I don’t think that way anymore, but I do hear voices. Not the
persecuting voices that my mother and grandmother would often speak of,
but there are murmurs of fear that linger in my mind that I have to
constantly silence. They tell me that my family history has predisposed
me to a life mental and emotional struggle, and that I won’t be able
handle the life that I want for myself.  I know these are lies, but
sometimes I lose my resolve and I doubt.  I don’t trust my own
experience.

Can you in some way relate these feelings to your life?  Is there
something that you are allowing to hold you back?  Today, I’m asking you
to join me in being brave and facing those fears.  I believe that
personal power starts with awareness.  God gives us everything that we
need and often, due to our circumstances, we are too afraid to see it. 
Give yourself a chance to write your own story.  Just give yourself a chance. 

Promise?  Okay, me too.

PLPT
is co-authored by Kim Jackson and GG Renee with the intention of
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freedom. We believe that true beauty starts on the inside and radiates
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