Daily Devotional Aug 13, 2026: YOU WERE NEVER BORN.

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Daily Devotional August 13, 2026: YOU WERE NEVER BORN.

Good morning. God morning to you.

You that is not there. How does that feel? How does that realization hit you every time you hear it? Like, do you remember without me during the day? And like, you’re lost in work or lost in the world, and then something happens, or you hear something, or you feel something, or you hear the silence, and then you find that that body feels lighter? The shoulders come down, a smile comes to the face. You sit back, you sit up like you’re on the throne.

If it’s not happening yet, it will begin to happen. I decree and declare that for you, that you will begin to have moments like that that become eternal. This Love knits them together, and then that’s all there is. This knowing that you are not.

I remember the prayer, the Memorare. It’s literally “remember.” And it’s to Mother Mary. And in the middle of the prayer, you say, “Oh, Virgin of virgins, my mother.” Virgin of virgins, my Mother. If your mother was a virgin, who are you? What are you? Are you here? Are any of us here?

Jesus’s mother, a virgin. I believe that esoterically, that points to something much deeper. The greatest story ever told. Of course, Jesus’s divine birth, His virgin birth. But I believe He’s also pointing us to that. What does that mean for you? If you have a hard time hearing that only God is, that you aren’t, does that make it a little bit easier? Does that help you conceptualize it? I feel like He gave it to me for that purpose.

In Hinduism, they have the same concept that you are born of a barren woman. A barren woman had you. Your grandma was barren. What does that do? Your mind stops. It can’t work. It can’t work. And then in the stopping of the mind, in the silence of the mind, only Love is left. Only Love is here. The Mother, the Father, the Holy Spirit, the Christ. That’s what Jesus is. That’s what He was showing us: that there is no death because there is no birth. There is only life. There is only Love, tenderness, a sweetness, a thundering silence that has completely engulfed you, your mind.

Stop trying to figure it out. Stop trying to think through it. You can’t. I’ve tried. These words don’t even come close. You must become like a still lake.

I was standing at a lake yesterday, a little worried because in Florida, any body of water, including a puddle, could have an alligator in it. And so whenever I see lakes, even though I’m drawn to them here, I’m careful. But standing at the lake, and there wasn’t a ripple in the lake. The ducks were all out near me on the ground looking for food. And all I could do was match it, mirror it. I’m like, “Okay, challenge, challenge.” And then you become aware of the stillness. And then you see the body trying to mimic it.

You think you’re trying to get still. You’re trying to get quiet. You’re trying to relax. But there’s already… this Love is relaxation. It is relief. It is relieved. It is already still and silent, infinitely so. But the lake, the still lake, it helps you to hear that still, small voice. It’s a mirror for you. And if you were to look down in it, at the reflection of that body, and then to look back simultaneously, you would know what your original face is.

That’s one of those Zen koans: the face you had before your great-grandmother was born. The face I’m looking out of right now, in this experience, is not. There is no face here. It’s the only thing in this studio I can’t see. I can see a microphone and a lamp, a couple of lamps, and a clock that says 7:17, which just so happens to be one of my numbers, and books, lots of books. And it’s all replaced where you would see my head. I see the studio looking back. And I know eyeballs don’t turn around, but looking back, you can do it. There’s nothing there. There’s nothing there. There’s a silence there, a stillness there. And when you’re looking back, you hear the silence. The thoughts stop. When you look back, you can sense the stillness. Movement stops. It ceases even though the body may continue to be in motion.

It’s really powerful, like super dope to do this while you are on a moving train or walking. That was my favorite thing to do when I was doing those 10 miles a day. I was absolutely like, I follow the Holy Spirit. And He had me in a season for about six months of 10 miles a day walking, power walking fast. And the entire time I was trying to look back at my face, remembering the practice of, “Ah, from this perspective, only the sidewalk, only the others, the seeming others.” And then feeling, “Oh, only Love, even though this appears to be here and it appears to be running through this, like it’s on a treadmill, only Love is here.”

Think about that Kanye West video, the very first one, “All Falls Down.” If you haven’t seen it in a while, I’ve referenced it before, look it up on YouTube. You only see his face when he walks past a reflective surface, when he goes in the bathroom and he’s in front of the mirror, or when you see his face through the car window reflection, I believe. But every other time, when you’re looking out through him, you see his hands sometimes when they come up, you see his legs, his jeans, his feet. You see Stacey Dash, like pre all of this stuff that’s happened in the last 20 years. You see her, and that is your experience all day. But you are thinking you’re stuck in jail looking out of a meatball.

This is The Headless Way. This is Douglas Harding. This is one doorway into the kingdom. It helped me tremendously, although I don’t share it all the time because, going back to that famous saying, it’s like putting legs on a snake. So if it’s not helpful for you, it can confuse you. But if it does feel like it hits you, I highly suggest you go to headless.org. Hold on, let me check that because I don’t want to send you… Headlessway… that is not the website. It’s headless.org. Headless.org. It’s a free resource to show you exactly what I’m saying to you. And if you have never done the practices, do the practices, especially the one in the mirror.

I was doing that practice at the age of five years old. One of my first memories, my core memories, was standing in front of a mirror doing the practice that I would not find until my late twenties. But naturally, I just could not fathom that what I was or am was stuck in that little brown girl in the mirror, like that brown image. I’m like, “I’m so much… I’m the whole room.” And so I would just stand in front of the mirror, swaying slowly back and forth, left to right. It felt like hours. I don’t know, it definitely could not have been that long as a kid with the attention span of a child, but I remember it like it was yesterday and just being completely in awe and confusion and suffering because I was like, “Why am I here?” Trying to remember and stressed.

Definitely arrived here with an urgency that did not let up until I got on this path. And then it seemed to intensify for a while because it felt like I had to remember so that I could help the rest of myself, so I could help you remember to relieve your suffering, to get you out of anxiety, to bring you to your joy. All I want to do is see you happy. That is why I do what I do.

Even when I’m not, when Nikki, this ego, is not happy, when she is busy or tired, I show up because I don’t have any other choice. It is His will. I have to move in His will. And so do you. And the more I do, even when this body is tired, He gives me energy. He gives me power. He gives me food, sustenance. He gives me money. He keeps me comfortable so that I can keep showing up, so that I can be here for you, so that we can get you comfortable and secure and stable so that you can be here for the rest of us.

And so this is bigger than you. And for you to be listening, it means you are called to task right now. It is time. You don’t have any more time to fool around, to goof off, to scroll. You must hear Him constantly. You must tune in constantly. Your higher self is calling you right now to see that you are watching that body, watching that world. You are set apart, born of a virgin. You have no form. You have no form. You have no problems, no forms to fill out, even though it’s going to look like you will still continue to fill out forms and do the things. But there will be a constant Presence there that keeps it Light.

And you’ll remember, “I’m here doing the work. You signed up to do this work.” And you just look like a human that has to do the things and live and pay bills. But you are one foot in the kingdom, one ear in the kingdom. His hand is on your shoulder. My hand is in your hand. And we will get through this again.

Again, from the top! I love you. I love you. I love you. And we’ll chat soon.

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