Nikki Walton’s Spiritual Journey and Recommended Books
Hi. I’m Nikki. A sinner. An aspiring saint. A mother. A daughter. A friend. A lover of Beauty. A lover of Love. I finally found Him. Only took 4 decades.
In 2008, I was writing and walking 3 miles a day. Constantly trying to see through the world. Desperately trying to be Love-Conscious, God-Conscious, Bliss-Conscious… to have the ‘experience’, the state of felt-Faith, 24/7.
Seventeen years later… after great worldly success, media tours, extensive global travel, large rooms, large moments, and long seasons of seeking… I’m still here.
Writing. Walking. Witnessing. Abiding AS Love. You can’t hold It because you can’t drop It. He’s holding you. Love, Mercy Incarnate, is holding you. He takes your place.
I was born Catholic, but I started seeking early. Around seven. I needed to understand death to understand God. I would stand in front of the mirror for hours, watching the reflection sway from side to side, trying to locate its source. Trying to find where she was coming from. Where ‘I’ was… where I Am.
I never fully bought in anywhere.
I was always just outside the door.
A perpetual outsider.
Still am 🙂
WATCH: EVERYTHING POINTS BACK TO HIM
I found Divine Love in 2014, and began practicing staying aware of It. But then I went to India 4 times. This body went to Galilee, climbed the Mount of Beatitudes alone, was baptized in the River Jordan, stood where St. Francis of Assisi received the Stigmata, wrote where St. Theresa of Avila wrote, and knelt where Padre Pio heard thousands of confessions in Italy. I sat before Neem Karoli Baba’s takhat at Kainchi (twice), and meditated in Vivekananda’s cave, in Vasistha’s cave multiple times, two years apart, in Mahavatar’s cave, and in the Jesus cave outside of Rishikesh, India. I’ve sat alone in Ram Dass’ room on Maui, just… radiating. Filling the world with this Love. Feeling Him pouring off of me, flowing from within me… the promised rivers of living water.
I found the same Presence everywhere. The same Presence is appearing as ‘everywhere’, and as me, and you, and all of it. Whether in a Mosque, or on a plane, or in the dentist’s chair, this Love is. Every path led back here. Every practice, and I practiced most practices- from chanting the Holy Names for years, to Novenas, to Sant Mat (inner sound and light), to Atma Vichara for more than a decade. TM. Hare Krishna. Advaita Vedanta. Mystical Christianity. You name It. Went to Mass daily for a period (the priests were coming to me for prayers!). Found church inside again. Then outside, again. Then everywhere, finally, for the final time. I surrendered. I circled. I returned. Upwards. Inward. CHRIST. Jesus. The Fire has only grown. The Blood is doing what only He can in my life. As my life.
There’s nothing left to protect now.
No face to save.
No position to hold.
No ‘me’ to continue the search.
Just Love.
HIS MERCY.
Instantly, eternally.
The Answer.
The Three as the One.
Father. Son. Holy Spirit.
Love. Love. Love.
My days, today– I rise before the sun to sit with the Son. I pray the full Rosary (Joyful, Light, Sorrowful, Glorious). I do my level best to pray every hour on the hour with the Word, I pray the Divine Mercy Chaplet at 3pm (the hour Jesus expired), I record… for the podcast, for social… it’s important to note that if I don’t pray, words don’t come. The words that spontaneously manifest from my heart and His responses from the cross (inwardly) become the reels you see and the words on the podcast. I mother. I daughter. I taxi lol. I read as much as I can between all of these things. I don’t eat much. I don’t sleep much. I church much (most days). I pray much 🙂 I love much. I love you!
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SUGGESTED READING
Aramaic Scripture: New Testament Translated from the Ancient Aramaic Language by Victor N. Alexander
Autobiography of a Yogi by Paramhansa Yogananda
Be As You Are: The Teachings of Sri Ramana Maharshi
Be Love Now by Ram Dass
Beyond Happiness: Finding and Fulfilling Your Deepest Desire by Frank J. Kinslow
The Blood Triumph by David Oyedepo
Bhagavad Gita (these talks + the Gita Press version)
A Book of God’s Love by M. R. Bawa Muhaiyaddeen
By His Grace: A Devotee’s Story by Dada Mukerjee
Celebrating Silence by Sri Sri Ravi Shankar
Champions of the Rosary by Donald Calloway
Chants of a Lifetime: Searching for a Heart of Gold by Krishna Das
A Course in Miracles by Foundation for Inner Peace
A Course in Miracles Made Easy: Mastering the Journey from Fear to Love by Alan Cohen
Divine Mercy Diary by Saint Faustina
Eufeeling! The Art of Creating Inner Peace and Outer Prosperity by Frank J. Kinslow
Falling into Grace: Insights on the End of Suffering by Adyashanti
From and for God: Collected Poetry and Writings on the Spiritual Path by Sitaram Dass
Fullness of Joy: A Spiritual Guide to the Paradise Within by John Stephenson
I Am That by Nisargadatta Maharaj
The Imitation of Christ by Thomas A Kempis
The Imitation of Mary by Thomas A Kempis
The Infinite Way by Joel Goldsmith
The Interior Castle by Saint Teresa of Avila
The Interlinear Bible: Hebrew- Greek- English (English, Hebrew and Greek Edition)
It All Abides in Love: Maharajji Neem Karoli Baba by Jai Ram Ransom
The Jap Ji: The Message of Guru Nanak by Kirpal Singh
Joy 24 x 7: Jeetendra Jain Explores Joy with Sadhguru by Jaggi Vasudev
Living the Infinite Way by Joel Goldsmith
Living the Jesus Prayer by Irma Zaleski
Love Everyone: The Transcendent Wisdom of Neem Karoli Baba Told Through the Stories of the Westerners Whose Lives He Transformed by Parvati Markus
Ma in Her Words by Anandamayi Ma
Miracle of Love: Stories About Neem Karoli Baba by Ram Dass
Monastery Without Walls: Daily Life in the Silence by Bruce Davis
My Conversations with Poor Souls by Eugenie Von der Leyen
The Nag Hammadi Scriptures, edited by Marvin Meyer
On Having No Head by Douglas Harding
Padamalai- Teachings of Sri Ramana Maharshi by Muruganar and David Godman
Padre Pio Mass Book
The Path of the Masters by Julian Johnson
Polishing the Mirror by Ram Dass
The Power of Now: A Guide to Spiritual Enlightenment by Eckhart Tolle
The Power of the Rosary by Gabriel Castillo
The Practice of the Presence of God by Brother Lawrence
A Return to Love by Marianne Williamson
Revelations of the Aramaic Jesus: The Hidden Teachings on Life and Death by Neil Douglas- Klotz
Rig Veda 9 (Soma Mandala) via Sri Arubindo
The Secret of Mary by Louis De Montfort
Silence of the Heart: Dialogues by Robert Adams
Simple Peace: The Spiritual Life of St. Francis of Assisi by Bruce Davis
Stillness Speaks by Eckhart Tolle
St. Seraphim of Sarov by Valentine Zander
The Supreme Yoga: Yoga Vasistha by Swami Venkatesananda
The Transparency of Things: Contemplating the Nature of Experience by Rupert Spira
The Untethered Soul: The Journey Beyond Yourself by Michael A. Singer
The Way of the Rose: The Radical Path of the Divine Feminine Hidden in the Rosary by Clark Strand and Perdita Finn
What Am I? A Study in Non- Volitional Living by Galen Sharp
What’s Wrong with Right Now? If You Don’t Think About It by Sailor Bob Adamson
Who Am I? (Nan Yar?) by Sri Ramana Maharshi
BUT… if you could just ‘be still and know’… by listening for the feeling of Love beyond all feelings…the Feeling before every feeling, before every thought, before even the thought to turn, or listen, or feel- you wouldn’t need to read a thing. You just know, like you know your name… no need to practice remembering it. He wrote the Gospel on your heart. Pray it with us daily.
NIKKI,YOU PROBABLY DON’T REMEMBER ME??? ABOUT 2 YRS.AGO I WOULD LISTEN TO YOUR MORNING ROSARY WITH YOUR MOM,AND REQUESTED PRAYERS FOR MY WIFE SANDIE, OF 35 BLESSED WONDERFUL YEARS. WHO HAD CANCER, UNFORTUNATELY MY DEAR WIFE PASSED AWAY ON MARCH 26,AFTER BEING BROUGHT FROM THE E.R. WITH A BRAIN BLEED,SHE WAS HOME FOR 2 DAYS ON HOSPICE AND WAS LAID TO REST APRIL 7, THANK YOU AND YOUR MOM AND LISTENERS FIR THEIR PRAYERS 🙏📿😢🌹
St. Ron! I remember you and Blessed Sandie very well. She is with Jesus now. Wholly and Holy the Light!I love you and I’m so thankful you reached out. Please keep in touch! I love you!!!