The Shining Is the Proof of God
by Nikki Walton of CurlyNikki.com
“Whoever has something in his hand will receive more, and whoever has nothing will be deprived of even the little he has.” – Gospel of Thomas (41)
“Whoever has ears, let him hear. There is light within a man of light, and he lights up the whole world. If he does not shine, he is darkness.” – Gospel of Thomas (24)
As you read these words you are beginning to shine again. You are emitting Light effortlessly, the way a rose emits fragrance. You’re not intending It. You’re not creating It. You’re not trying to shine. It’s just what you do. Who you are. It’s what you carry, what you hold. And if you don’t hold ‘It’, as it says in the Gospel of Thomas above, you will be deprived.
“When you come to know yourselves, then you will become known, and you will realize that it is you who are the sons of the living father. But if you will not know yourselves, you dwell in poverty and it is you who are that poverty.” – Gospel of Thomas (3)
You are still waiting. Looking around for the Kingdom. Waiting around for your prayer to be answered. For God to hear you. But He told us the Kingdom is here-
When will the kingdom come?” 11<Jesus said,> “It will not come by waiting for it. It will not be a matter of saying ‘here it is’ or ‘there it is.’ Rather, the kingdom of the father is spread out upon the earth, and men do not see it.”
We don’t pray to get things. We don’t shine to get recognition. We don’t hold this Light to manipulate reality. The Shining is how we see Reality. It’s the holding of the Promise that becomes what was promised.
If you’re not where He promised… or if you have no idea what He promised, but you feel called to more, to do more, to be more, and you’re looking around for the ‘more’… that’s why it hasn’t come lol.
IT’S HERE.
But most do not see.
You’re beginning to, tho.
We see by feeling.
I see this computer screen, and these fingers flying, and the little characters appearing on the screen which mean different things to different people (and means nothing to some), but all I feel is Love. All I know is Love.
Whether I’m sitting in the car line at the school for wayyyyy too long lol seeing trees and other cars and people on their devices… Love, Love, Love…
or I’m on the dock in the evening seeing the water, and a bridge and birds… Love, Love, Love. Joy. Joy. Joy.
When I wanted to leave St. Louis, MO back in 2019, not for any specific place, just anywhere with palm trees, I didn’t visualize palm trees and beach homes. I just felt Love where I saw my present neighborhood, my present park… I let the Love be louder. I wasn’t trying to see something that wasn’t there, or force anything. I was simply knowing by FEELING that the Kingdom was there, in my midst, and that It would appear, reshaped. The Truth sets us free.
We must move from feeling It within to knowing it’s within and without… everything is on Holy Fire. In the Gospel of Thomas, Jesus says, “the Kingdom is inside of you, and it is outside of you.” He’s everywhere, looking back at Himself, at you, through the man you’ll see on the street today, the woman you’ll see, the child, the dog, the squirrel, the bird. Behold. And be held.
Shine this Light and He’ll give you more.
I love you,
nik
