The Manifestation Has Started. (What I Saw for You At Midnight.)
by Nikki Walton of CurlyNikki.com
“When we surrender to discouragement or despair, it is usually because we are thinking too much of the past or the future.” Saint Therese of Lisieux
You’re not stuck. You’re shedding. You’re pruning. You’re getting comfortable with being uncomfortable. I was on the phone with someone last night who is mid-miracle, she just doesn’t see it that way yet. She is ready to be in the new reality, ten toes down, but she feels trapped between the old and the new. One foot on either side.
Fear is still coming fast and furious and she thinks that should be behind her now. The truth is that you, and I’m talking to YOU now, will have to hold His Energy, His Love, His Power, through the old scenarios. During the re-run episodes, difficult conversations, confrontations… while paying bills, and shopping, and stuck in traffic.
You will have to call down the Holy Spirit, to feel Him as you go back into the old spaces you thought you had graduated from, in that office, or in that room, or in that house, with those people, and CHOOSE GOD. FEEL GOD where you used to only feel the fear. Where you used to only feel the pain. Where you were hurt… Jesus is there. Jesus was always there.
And it’s not our fault that we didn’t know. It just wasn’t time. But it is now. This is how we heal. Not by not feeling… not by avoiding… not by suppressing, but by feeling it all, WHILE FEELING HIM. That’s the only difference! The old feelings come back up to be felt next to Him… with Him in their midst… this is the work. This is real Worship.
Even if it’s only a teeny bit of His Peace at first. There have been moments for me in the past months that would have sent me into a spiral. Into a sadness that may have taken at least an hour to praise my way out of. Now… moments… not even moments, a breath, and I smile, tears in eyes, lol, and sit back up into Him.
It’s not about staying aware of Him forever, it’s about coming back as soon as you forget. The forgetting is a part of the journey. It strengthens you. Every time you forget, it’s an opportunity. A rung on the ladder. You step up higher, you get closer to Heaven. Every time you step out of character, out of your Hedge of Protection, out of the Holy Fire and back into the luke-warm of it all, you feel the difference, you no longer feel the charge in the air, and you jump back in. You command, ‘In the Name of Jesus’ or you plead the Blood, and you’re BACK. And the enemy has to get back.
The whole world is a distraction. THE WHOLE WORLD IS SET UP TO DISTRACT YOU FROM HIS PRESENCE. Notice that as soon as you lock in, you get a call. An old partner reaches out. An old business acquaintance, a cousin you lost touch with… an opportunity to choose your old self, that old energy, old sins, habits and ways, it resurfaces… it tempts you to choose. To double down. This is a GoOD sign. When you see this, smile. When you see it, it becomes transparent. And you win. And then another challenge. And you choose the Spirit… and you win again. Little, micro-battles all day, all night.
I was on the dock last night praying, talking to God and a wind stirred up so strong I legit got scared that I was going to blow off into the ocean lol. But I stood my ground… I stood firmer and braced a bit, and closed my eyes and let Him breathe on me. I leaned into the power of it, the fear that rose up and the mighty remembrance that this is how the Holy Spirit shows up sometimes. I was praying for a fresh baptism… and the wind came and didn’t stop.
“And when the day of Pentecost was fully come, they were all with one accord in one place. And suddenly there came a sound from heaven as of a rushing mighty wind, and it filled all the house where they were sitting.” – Acts 2:1-2
After that phone call I mentioned earlier, I was up at midnight praying, praying, praying, and I could feel the Spirit moving. FOR YOU. I was pleading for you. I was seeing for you. That the manifestation has started. That the door is opening… immediately.
Praise today without ceasing… don’t let distraction distract you.
I love you,
nik
Thank you Nikki!! I find myself in this space over and over again but stepping higher and higher on that ladder. I so look forward to your articles they always come right on time. Love you!!!
Thank you for this article. It helped ease my mind and described exactly where I’ve been. I’ve been in that in-between space—letting go of the old, waiting for the new—and reading your words reminded me that it’s not failure; it’s pruning. It gave me peace to know I’m not alone in this part of the journey.