Let me let you in on a little secret–
There’s a part of you that has never aged. Never changed. It was with you on your first day of kindergarten, your first day of college and is with you, witnessing the reading of these very words right now. It will be present at the birth of your first child. It will be there when your body dies. It’s always here, and always now. And you’re intimately familiar with it, you just forget sometimes.
It’s faceless. It’s formless. It’s who and what you really are. This presence is your awareness of being. It’s your ‘I am-ness’. It’s consciousness and it’s not ‘yours’, it’s absolutely universal. My sense of ‘I am’, the simple and super apparent way that I know that I’m alive… is the same as yours and the same as your mothers and the same as Beyonce’s! There’s only ONE, but it appears as the many. It appears as absolutely everything! It’s what man calls God. We are God appearing as humans… God expressing as magical Black girls and our main task is to become transparent enough to let God work through us to serve each other. You came here to experience and play and forget your power in order to remember and become it once more. And you tasked your other selves to remind you from time to time of who you really are. I’m one of your other selves. And this is your wake up call. You’ve been dreaming that your only this girl, sitting here reading these words, wondering what Nikki is going on about. God has been dreaming he’s you. But you’re so much more. Don’t go back to sleep.
Before you were aware of being you, you were just aware. There was just awareness of being. Period. And you can become aware of that unconditioned presence right now by stopping and listening for a sound that you can’t hear. Alternatively, you can ask yourself silently, ‘I wonder what my next thought will be?’ and wait in gentle anticipation, listening for it (a la Eckhart Tolle), like a cat watching a mouse hole. When the next thought comes, ask the question again and wait. Listen. The silence you experienced waiting for the next thought is always there and it’s not empty– it’s absolutely full. It’s the source of everything and is experienced subjectively by you as a feeling of peace and joy. Stay there. You’re becoming aware of yourself.
So let’s take this one step further. If you’re God appearing as Lorie or Nadeira, then what could you possibly fear? What could you want or ask for? It’s already yours. You created it! God is appearing as you and knows and fulfills your wants and needs before your conscious mind can attempt to beg or pray for them. He knows what you need more than you do. God is source. Which means your abundance, your health and wealth is already here, right now. So again, your only task is to stay connected to the presence by staying consciously aware of the peaceful, loving silence. And that awareness will take the form of the outer things you need to live and rock in this world– be it a plane ticket, a new job or a 6 bedroom house. Note–you can never actually lose your connection, you are THAT… there’s not two– there’s not you and God, there’s really just God appearing as you… you just need to be consciously aware. Think of it like electricity. It’s powerful and everywhere but absolutely useless unless you’re plugged in. So when seeming problems arise, turn to that presence. Love it. Appreciate it. Feel those feels. When everything is all good, turn to the presence. Thank it, appreciate it, love it, become even more familiar with it. Pretty soon, you’ll come to realize that you’re not just aware of the presence. You are the presence. And everything is you.
Marinate on that for the rest of the day.
Your Other Self, also known as Nik