A Quiet Rebellion Against Over-Explaining, People-pleasing, and Pressure.
by Nikki Walton for Curlynikki.com
Affirm: “I’m not leaving Presence to prove anything.”
“The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.”
– Exodus 14:14
Sometimes silence is alignment, not avoidance. It’s coming into agreement with God, knowing that He has already spoken.
There will come a moment today, tomorrow, next week, where you want to shout,
“But that’s not what I meant.”
“I’m doing my best.”
“You don’t get it.”
You will feel the need to explain yourself, your journey, your position, your beliefs. I had a moment like that yesterday.
But in that moment,
God whispers:
“I get it. That’s enough.”
“Let your words be few.”
-Ecclesiastes 5:2
I’ve been practicing the spiritual art of saying nothing. I used to think I had to explain myself to be safe. But I’ve learned that safety is Presence. We are in Him, and being silent at times isn’t meant to shut anyone out, but to stay in Him. To stay in Love. And when you stay… something moves! And that’s what happened to me yesterday!
The first time you do it, there will be such a tightness in your chest, a heaviness, a strong urge to (over) explain. To be right. To make your point. To be heard. But that’s the war of the flesh and Spirit you’ve heard about. It will rage til the end, but you can win battles along the way, by becoming silent when you’re angry. By holding your tongue when it wants to wag haha.
It will feel like an absolute fight, but instead of riding out on a high horse of logic (like you always have!), drop into His arms and say:
“I’m not leaving Presence to prove anything.”
“Lord, You are my clarity. You are my defense.”
And just like that, the loop breaks.
The room shifts.
You soften. And you stay.
This also goes for trying to defend your religion or beliefs about God… or trying to evangelize others. Just don’t lol. I used to try. But St. Bernadette says our job is to inform, not convince. And the way I inform is with my Fruit. With my Peace. Often with my Silent-Love.
And when I do need to speak up, it’s the Fire speaking. The Silent- Love does the talking and it’s entirely more effective and potent than anything Nikki could’ve thought up!
“Set a guard, O Lord, over my mouth; keep watch at the door of my lips.”
-Psalm 141:3
When you feel the urge to explain yourself today,
pause and place your hand on your chest.
Breathe and pray:
“I am already seen.
Already safe.
Already spoken for.
I don’t need to be heard –
to be held.”
And let God hold you there. FEEL HIM.
Or you can remind yourself, while feeling the Fire, ‘if I stay (in Love), something moves.’ And know it will. And that you’ll be writing me a message with your testimony… VICTORY is already yours.
You are moving different this season. This is a new you. A new life. A new level. The old ways don’t work. Talking to walls don’t work. LOVE. LOVE. LOVE. There are no walls.
I love you,
nik
SIT WITH US TOMORROW ON SILENT RETREAT!
