The 5AM Sleep Paralysis That Made Me Say JESUS
What happened when I couldn’t move, but could still call on His Name.
Nikki Walton of CurlyNikki.com
I went to bed last night around 11… which is par for the course these days.
I was awakened at 1am by the sound of what I thought was my car alarm + very loud music outside… like a car beating like nineteen-hundred and ninety-nine.
I figured their bass may have triggered my truck’s alarm (it’s happened before). I’ve got the Mercedes app on my phone, so I tapped the button to stop the alarm, there’s always a delay, but it eventually quieted. The music didn’t stop, but it wasn’t too loud.
Out of habit, I tapped the Instagram icon to see what I missed. 🙃 About 15 minutes later, I put the phone down, rolled over, and BAM, the alarm started again. This time, the music had a Dracula vibe to it (like DUH DUH DUH DUHHHHHH..). I hit the app again, slightly more annoyed, and thought maybe a neighbor was up late watching a movie? It’s usually super quiet here.
Not even 30 minutes later… again, again, again. The honking and the Dracula music were competing now. Both were super loud. I started Googling “Mercedes + Dracula music alarm” (lol) and found Tesla has a feature like that (Bach), but not my truck.
That’s when I started thinking, maybe it’s not my truck at all. My lights weren’t flashing like they normally would. And the next morning, I noticed a Tesla parked nearby I’d never seen before… I’m guessing the mystery music and horn came from that car.
Anyway, I tried to go back to sleep. I rolled over onto my stomach, something I never do, because I sleep pretty (on my back) to save my face lol hoping to catch at least one more hour before early Mass. Fifteen minutes into my cat nap, I heard footsteps in the hall.
They advanced fast and heavy. Like barely a breath, and whatever it was, it was on top of me.
I could feel its breath.
I could feel it pressing down.
I’ve had sleep paralysis episodes since I was a little girl but hadn’t had an episode since around 2017 (in Spain, very similar situation, I could feel the bed depress as the presence sat down). I couldn’t move a muscle, but I wasn’t scared. Not this time. I knew what to do.
I couldn’t speak, but I could think. I could feel God. I said His Name in my mind.
JESUS.
And instantly, no delay, the pressure lifted.
The presence left.
My body could move.
It was 5AM. I sat up and grabbed my Bible, opened to Psalms, and started reading by flashlight. Nikki from 10 years ago would’ve been hiding under the covers. But I felt like Neo… bring it on!
The Name of all Names (and His felt-Presence) worked so swiftly, so cleanly, so powerfully, I had to share this with you (even though this all feels super personal).
In case you have a night like this, in case you find yourself dealing with a wave of negative thoughts, a heavy spiritual weight, nightmares, lucid dreams, or that “can’t move can’t breathe” kind of moment… Don’t panic. Don’t feed it your fear. Just call on HIM.
There’s a story about Padre Pio being awakened in the middle of the night and seeing Satan in the corner of the room. He looked up, shrugged, and said, “Oh, it’s only you. I thought it was someone who could hurt me.” And then rolled back over and fell back asleep!!! Gangster.
What came for me (looking for the old me) left empty-handed. It didn’t find fear here. It found The Blood.
I have given up trying to figure out why things happen. I just love God and thank Him. What I know for sure is that nothing ever comes to me unless sent by Him. I feel He allows some things so I can be of service, so I can carry a light and run back in to show you the way out, too. So you’ll know to take cover under the Blood. To say the Name that stops all advances… mid-sentence. Mid-plot. Mid-attack.
JESUS. JESUS. JESUS. Thank you, Jesus. Thank you Father, for Jesus. I’m operating on one or two hours of sleep (that’s also a tactic to wear you down, confuse you, etc). but I feel GoOD. “I never get tired. I feel outstanding.” I saw that video the other day and loved it! Maybe you will, too! I love you! Stay vigilant! Stay praying. No fear! Only God is here!
Love,
nik
